The future is mine to mold

So, I'm sitting at work (Knead A Massage) and I noticed that I'm talking a lot to a customer who arrived a bit early and is waiting for her therapist to begin her massage. I think to myself, "I'm talking a lot. I'm almost talking too much...to the point where I'm just saying things that are on the brink of embarrassment." After the customer goes into her room for the massage, I realize that I've changed a lot in the last 3.5 years since graduating from college. Back then I was pretty shy. If I was in the same situation 5 years ago, I would have sat quietly behind my desk and not said a word. I would have provided the necessary customer service, but I wouldn't have gone above and beyond with a conversation. I've actually been pretty social with a lot of the customers, and even my coworkers at both of my jobs.

Lately, I've been feeling more eager to get to know people and understand where they come from and where they've been. I guess it's because I'm anxious to go someplace and find out who I am. I don't think I really know that yet. I'm already 25 and I don't know who I am? I think I have a pretty good grasp, but maybe I need something more. As I have written about numerous times on this blog, I need culture and travel and change. It will only make me a better person.

Starting right now, right this instant, I'm going to do my best to do something every day that scares me. That's the challenge, isn't it? Do something every day that scares you. Who actually does that? I don't think I know anyone who takes advantage of these life-altering opportunities. Do you? Have you become a better person because of it?

Another thing I'd like to do is not talk badly behind people's backs. I feel like I do it too often and it's not right. I would hate to know that people are talking about me. It will be difficult, so many of my friends are gossips, but it's something that I'm ashamed of, so I will make it happen.