I turn 25 on December 2 and I'm not sure what to think about it. All my friends who are around my age are always talking about their quarter-life crisis, but I never really understood it. I was never one to feel depressed about growing old or things changing in my life. I was happy for who I was and what I had accomplished in my 25 years....
...until now. I look back on everything and I am happy with my accomplishments up until the age of 22, right after I graduated from college. Since then, I can't say that I have had the time of my life and there's nothing to complain about. It's just not true. After graduating from college, life has been less than. My school loan and credit card debt is ridiculous, my job isn't what I was expecting it to be, and thinking about that is depressing.
I recently read that the primary cause of stress is financial reasons. Check! That's me. As a college graduate, I should be making more money than I do. But as an employee in a non-profit organization, it's pretty hard to make that happen. My company is run by men, so it doesn't give much hope to the women in the lower positions. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, the company, and the people that I work with, but the pay is not what I thought it would be. I guess winter sports just aren't as popular as the NBA, NFL, and MLB.
The greatest fear that I have in life is failure. I want to be a successful person, and to me that means finding a place where I am happy. And to break that down even further, that means being financially stable, having a happy and healthy family of my own, and making a place for myself in the world. I want to do more volunteer work and donate my time to things that matter. Someday I would love to go to Africa and help build a school in a 3rd world country, or teach English in China. But I know the only way that will ever happen is if I get out of debt. That's going to take me many years.
Cue quarter-life crisis.
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